the beginning of everything

It all started back in 2020 when I realized I had spent my life dedicated to "fixing" myself so I can feel and experience life like everyone else ... yet all I felt was overwhelmingly fragile and fractured.

That's when it finally, at 31 years old, hit me like a ton of bricks.

What if I had it all wrong all along?

What if all my efforts to "fix" myself were continuing to steer me into rocky waters because there wasn't anything to fix after all?

What if all my efforts to live life like everyone else and struggling to find joy in a traditional life wasn't because there was something wrong with me, but it just wasn't the life I was meant to live?

What if I didn't need to feel like I was always failing at work and therefore failing at life because I couldn't keep up with the round the clock expectations?

What if instead, I could redefine normal? work? success? for myself?

What if I flipped the script and just rewrote the whole damn dictionary?

What if the new "normal" is just like me?

What if "work" now means working as hard as I can building a life I love, doing things I love but working beyond my capacity isn't a requirement?

What if my version of success had a shift in priorities? What if I could be "successful" by creating a life that supports my brain's rhythm instead of contradicts it?

What if what makes me, me has actually been enough all along?

This new world of what if's opened up to me and I've been pursuing them all ever since.

This is where it has taken me and I'm so flipping glad it did.